Tuesday, August 2, 2011

My days so far

Its been 4 days since D&C. Just thought I'd share how the days have gone so far:

Thurs: found out baby had died at 12 wk scan. Mainly shock, crying.

Fri: D&C. Spent day is hospital. Not really crying.

Sat: morning a few tears. My mum called over, more tears but could talk and be logical, talked about future a bit. That evening, uncontrollable crying/sobbing.

Sun: bad morning, crying. Old friend called over, some tears, talked about it, she made me laugh. Didn't really cry rest of evening. DH was very quiet, brooding. This killed me. Sobbed before I went to sleep.

Mon: DH gone to work. Some tears in morning. Met friend again, talked. Called into my parents, some tears. Back home to DH. We talked a lot. Wrote down questions for our RE about what happened. Talked about either going again (we have 4 frozen embryos left to transfer) or taking a complete break until after Xmas. Made no decisions, just talked. We downloaded first 4 episodes of Curb Your Enthusiasm, new series- laughed watching them. Had little cry before bed.

Tues: here I am, alone. I booked appointment with re to discuss what happened. Also waiting on a counsellor to call to make an appointment. I feel like crying but can't. Don't know what to do today


  1. I am so extremely very sorry for your loss....Sending you the positive vibes and hoping that you and your husband will go throught this together and come out stronger and ever... Don't loose hope...

  2. Hang on love! I know how hard it is...just continue to lean on your loved ones. That is the only thing that enabled me to heal. I tried to spend as much time possible with my family and friends. The hardest part for me was the days I was alone. Each day will get better than the last ..despite how crazy that sounds. I didn't believe it when going through it. I still have meltdowns about my loss from time to time and it was a year ago now. Thinking of you!

  3. I'm just so terribly sorry that you are going through this.....I wish I could take away your pain......I really do.

  4. I'm so sorry, it's terrible what you're going through. Don't do anything until you feel up do it, and just take things slowly.

  5. I'm so so sorry for you!! I can't imagine what you're going through. Please know that I will be praying for you! One day at a time...

  6. Hang in there. I really appreciated your encouragement during my m/c last week. I'm sending you good thoughts! Take care of yourself this week!!