Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Break Time

Well as I've said in previous post, I'm taking a break from fertility treatment. I spoke with RE yesterday and she agreed to give me prescription for thyroid meds to keep that low and metformin, folic acid and aspirin. I met with my counsellor tonight and talked about the idea of taking a break. Part of that means I need to unplug myself from the blogworld that I have been a part of for nearly two years. Everyday I check my google reader and read the latest posts in the IF cyber world. In a way its like constantly talking to the other woman in waiting room of the fertility clinic...every day. In order to truly take a break, I need to just let all that go for a while.

So I'm saying goodbye for a while to all u lovely ladies in the blogosphere!! It will be like giving up an addiction!!!! But has to be done to give my head space and quieten my mind for a while.

Best of luck with all of your journeys, hopefully see you all in a few months :)

Sunday, October 30, 2011


I get my program in the gym today!! Bring on the hot bod!!! Hee hee

I had my assessment on Thursday and I was pleased to find out that I actually had not put on much extra weight over the past few months. I'm 9 stone 7 (think that's 133lbs) and I'm 5 foot 7 inches. BUT.....I'm flabby, seriously flabby. So the trainer reckons I should mostly do free weights and some cardio 3 times a week, no more than 40 minutes (phew, that's enough gym time for me). I will also try and do a class a week.

I'm meeting my counsellor on Wednesday evening. By this stage I will have spoken to my RE about trying naturally for a good few months. I'm hoping the counsellor can give me some tips on how to ACTUALLY switch off!

We put the clocks back an hour over here...nice to have an extra hour in bed!!

Thursday, October 27, 2011


Thanks for all the lovely comments and support. It's crappy but life goes on eh?
So heres my next plan :

1. I'm not gonna do another FET this side of Xmas. I want to enjoy Christmas with my family and friends.

2. I have just joined a 6 week program in my local gym. Aim: to lose 10 lbs and tone up: I wanna look fabulous for the Christmas party in work and generally feel good about my body again.

3. I have arranged a phone consultation with my RE for Tuesday. I'm gonna explain to her that we are taking a good break, maybe 4 to 6 months off. But since immune problems have been identified, I would like a prescription for the immune drugs (steroids), also aspirin, high strength folic acid, metformin, eltroxin (for thyroid) and possibly the clexane. Even though I have PCO, I do ovulate every month and DH has a good sperm count but slightly below motility & morphology. So in theory we should still have a chance to conceive naturally with this extra support.

4. My aim is to enjoy sex again like the good old days pre-TTC. Obviously around ovulation time, we'll go the extra mile so to speak.

5. I'm not gonna have a breakdown every time AF arrives, I'll be expecting it each month.

6. On a side note: since May 2010, I've either been on bcp, stims, down regulating, pregnant, miscarrying, on HRT, body is telling me ENOUGH for now....ENOUGH. IVF is a long hard road and I've reached the end for now. Time to recuperate and regain strength.

I'll keep on blogging, following all your stories but with less intensity. I think I need to just refocus on other things for a while. DH and I just shared our three year anniversary on Tuesday and you know what? Every month since we got married we have been focused on TTC.

Time for a break, me thinks!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Sunday, October 23, 2011


Very heavy feeling in uterus, can be crampy at times - even though I'm still on all the anti- cramp meds. Roller coaster of emotions. Majorly comfort eating...sweets, chocs, cakes u name it!
Kinda looking forward to work tomorrow to just keep busy. Thinking of testing on Thursday but what if it's a bfn? Will I be able to face work on Friday? The kids are all dressing up for Halloween in school that day....maybe i could wear a mask and cry behind it all day!!!

Saturday, October 22, 2011


Very low mood today. Convinced it hasn't worked. Still got very heavy pre-periody feeling in uterus. Not quite cramps but feel like it's going that way....urrrgh I HATE the TWW.

I thought I could be relaxed and breezy...what happens, happens. But I just can't be, I care too much.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Bed rest is boring!!

Well today is my last day of bed rest....whoop! Back to work tomorrow which is great and will keep my mind busy.
I watched three films:
1. Something Borrowed.......boring
2. No Strings Attached.......awful, truly awful
3. Hall Pass....m'eh!

Symptoms wise, just a heavy feeling in uterus which had been there before the transfer so I'm guessing it's just the feeling of the lining building up. That's it!

I've been looking up a local gym online to get ready to join if this doesn't work out. I'm not being negative, just having a plan B!