Friday, June 24, 2011


We got to see 1 healthy strong heartbeat today (and hear it!) Such a huge relief, never thought I'd make it this far! I was so nervous all day but thankfully it all went well.

I think I'll finally sleep well tonight. And maybe I can start to enjoy the pregnancy now.

My symptoms: sickly feeling most of the day, sheer exhaustion the past few days, constant heavy feeling in uterus, crampy AF feeling most of the time, bloated.

All good though!!

Friday, June 17, 2011

Still here!

Just a quick post to say everything is going well so far. I am a nervous wreck imagining the worst all the time. I'm just lying low for a least until first ultrasound on the 24th. I'm afraid to talk/blog about it until I feel a bit more secure.

Will be back on the 24th please God :)

Thursday, June 9, 2011

2nd Beta

Just got results of 2nd Beta: 1621
The doctor said this was excellent. So phewwwwww!!!! The betas were actually less than 48 hours apart so I expect it may have been a little higher later that day.

I barely slept a wink last night as I started getting really bad cramps and expected the worst. The doc prescribed me Buscopan again to help ease the cramps but said only take them if I have to. Why am I having cramps??? Seriously.

From one worry to the next....sigh....

Tuesday, June 7, 2011


Just got my beta results: 858!

Pretty pleased.

The clinic said there's no need to get a second one as the number is high. From reading other blogs, especially in the US, everybody gets a second if not third beta. I know it's not gonna change the outcome and it's just something else to worry about. I dunno....

I'm booked in for a 3rd round of intralipids on Tuesday and then the 7 week scan is on June 24th!!

I'm exhausted now, gonna have an afternoon snooze!

Sunday, June 5, 2011

The test!

Just thought I'd share how we tested on Friday!
We had planned to test on Saturday, but as Friday evening approached we started talking about testing. I told DH that if we tested tonight we would definitely know. We weighed up the pros and cons. What would we do if it was negative?? How would we cope? We didn't really have an answer. All I knew is that at this stage I was drained from the whole process and I just couldn't think beyond the test.

Anyway we decided to test. I had held my pee from about 6pm and it was now 9.25pm. I had bought a first response test. I told DH that I would POAS and then keep the test turned over and come back in to sit with DH on the couch. We would wait the 3 mins and turn over the test together. So off I go, POAS and return the DH on the couch. We held each other, my heart was jumping out of my chest, I could hear it. We counted down the 3 mins by looking at the time on the TV. We said right let's do this. Lo and behold, two strong lines!! I literally jumped up off the couch and jumped up and down, saying 'that's it, it's positive!' DH was beaming, we hugged, kissed, cried....hugged some more!

Deep down I had an inkling that it had worked, but on Friday morning, I woke up feeling very crampy and that had lasted the whole day which had planted doubt in my mind.

Anyway, I am still enjoying the lovely novelty of it. I am feeling very positive about it and allowing myself to think ahead if I want to. I'm determined not to carry the worries of my previous history with me. Positive vibes all the way!!!

Friday, June 3, 2011


Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Thursday, June 2, 2011


Well I still haven't POAS yet! Yes you heard me? I've held out....where oh where have I found the strength???

I have work tomorrow and there is just NO WAY I could go in if it was a BFN.

Symptoms-wise - right now, I feel good. Today I was a bit crampy (like pre-crampy feeling). At  the mo, I feel nothing - some twinges in lower abdomen. That's it really. I'll be testing on Saturday most nervous.