Had a bit of a mini-meltdown earlier! It sounds silly but what if it works? I won't be able to believe it - I won't be able to relax. I feel like I will not be able to emotionally handle it. Why???? Because how will my body know what to do? It has never been pregnant before - what if it actually does not know what to do?????????????????
Decided to take proper control of my weight today! I'm about 7/8 pound over my "happy" weight. Even though in a way I keep thinking 'what's the point in trying to get slim if the IVF works in 6 weeks time?'. But what if it doesn't work? I'll be left feeling like total crap not only because it hasn't worked, but I will look like a lump too!
Don't get me wrong, I am not overweight - but a half stone over my usual weight just isn't good - all my clothes are bursting at seams. So pigging out has stopped today - I ate healthily all day and managed to get out for a good brisk walk in the fresh air. Yay me! I wish weightloss and toning up was instant though!
I've set up this blog today to detail my journey through IVF/ICSI.
Bit of background info - I'm married about a year and a half to an amazing DH. Started trying immediately after wedding...no joy. After about 10/11 months got some tests done. Turn out I have Polycystic Ovaries (although not the syndrome). And DH has good count but low motility and morphology. Our clinic recommended ICSI. Major shock to system for both of of us!!!
Anyway, long story short - we are starting our IVF journey on May 2010. I started on the pill (weird) about 2 weeks ago. Sniffer to begin in 8 days.
I am generally a very positive person and am hoping this attempt will work but I am building myself up to accept that IVF is a course of treatment and it may not work first time.
Trying to take each day as it comes. If anyone wants to share this journey with me, leave me comments, emails whatever - the more support the better I say!!!
Feel in major limbo at the moment though - I just want to get started ion the serious meds!! I actually picked them up the other day - scary. So much!!