I visited my best mate who had her baby 2 weeks ago today. He is a major cutie. She told me about her friend who is pregnant age 37...i'm happy for her because she's older and it's her first. ( she only got married last summer ). Anyway I was feeling ok. I rang my clinic this morning and left a message asking someone to call me to work out dates for the transfer. Did I get a call back? No.
On my way home I called DH, no answer. I called him again, no answer. I wanted to know what he wanted for dinner. The pressure started to build....urrrgh....
1. visiting a friend who had baby
2. Holding baby
3. Hearing of yet ANOTHER pregnancy
4. DH not answering phone.
5. No call from clinic
All of this equals MELTDOWN!!!!!!!
By the time I got home, my bottom lip was starting to wobble.
DH was home, I started making dinner immediately. Tears started to flow, pain bubbling up inside ---- jealousy, anger, resentment, hurt, anguish.....pain, sheer pain.
DH hugged me,he understood. He took over dinner. I felt better once I let it all out.
Best friend texted me saying how well I looked earlier and how strong I was......STRONG?????? Little does she know....