I really thought I'd get a bfp this morning. First time I ever thought that. Myself a DH went on a two hike this afternoon just to clear our heads. We decided that I'll arrange a phone consult with our doctor this week. I really feel that the transfer was a little too late in the cycle so I want to investigate this further. I would also like to start straight into another FET cycle- as in start bcp's when AF arrives this week. However I think the clinic generally make patients wait a month. We'll see.
I've been crying on and off ALL day. DH is sooooo down in the dumps that it is literally breaking my heart seeing him like this. I'm trying to be positive and practical. IVF takes patience and perseverance. We have 6 blasts left to use. One of them has to work, we just need to keep pushing forward. To be honest if we get one baby out of this, I'll be content and that will be it. I always dreamt of having at least three kids, but this journey is too difficult. I don't want to spend the next ten years chasing another BFP.
I hope DH comes round a bit tomorrow....he's 100% entitled to feel how he feels and I wouldn't undermine that but I need him to be stronger and more positive.
Money is also a big issue....IVF has drained us financially (as well as emotionally).
I hope tomorrow brings renewed hope as I don't want to dwell on this bfn any further.
Anyway we picked up a McDonalds earlier to cheer us up...didn't work!!!
I came across a blog today were a girl had done an IVF cycle and about 3 FETs and finally the last one worked and she had beautiful twins as a result. It actually gave me an uplift.
Tomorrow is mother's day here in Ireland. Urrrrrgh!! I do have an amazing mother though who has been an amazing support through all our IF struggles. I know her heart is breaking for me today....that hurts me more than the bfn. Knowing that the people I care most about are hurting, kills me.
Anyway to anyone reading my blog, please leave a positive comment about IVF! We can inspire each other!!