8dp5dt

I haven't had a great few days. Cramps got a lot stronger throughout the week. I know in my heart it hasn't worked. I test 6dp5dt (sneaky test) - BFN (prob too early anyway).

On Thursday (7days) I went to clinic for Intralipids. The nurse there couldn't get a vein so I ended up having to come into clinic this morning to see doc. I was a wreck, very emotional. I told him I'm sure it hadn't worked as I've been having bad cramps and I asked him did he think I should even bother with the intralipids. He was great - really listened and didn't patronise me. He told me I prob was right that it didn't work as I know my own body. But he recommended getting the intralipds just in case I was wrong. He got the IV set up in seconds (painlessly).

He gave me cyclogest to take up to official test date. I've to switch from crinone. He said that if it didn't work, we'd throw everything at the next cycle. He was so positive, I actually felt better. I 99.9% for sure know that AF is on the way. I'll take the cyclogest anyway to cover all bases. He also said if it didn't work, I could get going on FET#2 asap. So basically prep in Jan and transfer early Feb. (I'll be 30 in Feb).

I'm determined now to have a great Christmas - I'm determined that this will be our last Christmas as a twosome. Either we'll have a "plus one" on our arms or on route next xmas.

Again I am not gonna wish away the weeks. I would really like to have a plan in place before the xmas break so to know that we have something to look forward to in the New Year.

5dp5dt

Cramps - Lwr back pain - Bloating - AF Symtpoms - Heart Palpitations

3dp5dt

Very Crampy - just took paracetamol.

Lower back pain.

I'm hating this 2ww :(

Dull Achiness

That's what I've been feeling all morning. Dunno if it's a good thing or bad thing...

Edited to add: It's really a crampy, heavy feeling. Why so early? Why at 2dp5dt?

Time will tell, I suppose.

Transfer

Well, I had the transfer done yesterday. All went well, two of the embryos survived the thaw and the transfer went very smoothly. I'm just taking it easy now - had a good night sleep last night and and chilling out on the couch. (Getting a bit bored though!)

It feels surreal - almost like it never happened.

Anyway my OTD is the 14th of Dec - so my plan is to hold out until then. Last time I tortured myself. I am also gonna stay away from the internet and I google EVERYTHING last time.

Fingers-crossed....

Crinone!

I had final scan yesterday morning. Lining looked good - 10.5mm

I started the progesterone suppositories today - urrrgh, hate them.

I've to continue on all the meds except the nasal spray.

On the road

Haven't posted in a while. Everything ticking over at the moment.

I went in for a scan on Monday - all was good. Started Clexane injections, steroids, aspirin, folic acid, B vits the next day. Decreased nasal spray to 1 sniff, three times a day.So far so good.

Booked in for a scan next Tuesday. Intralipids booked for Thursday (1 week before transfer).

Really trying hard not to think ahead too much...so hard not too.