My days so far

Its been 4 days since D&C. Just thought I'd share how the days have gone so far:

Thurs: found out baby had died at 12 wk scan. Mainly shock, crying.

Fri: D&C. Spent day is hospital. Not really crying.

Sat: morning a few tears. My mum called over, more tears but could talk and be logical, talked about future a bit. That evening, uncontrollable crying/sobbing.

Sun: bad morning, crying. Old friend called over, some tears, talked about it, she made me laugh. Didn't really cry rest of evening. DH was very quiet, brooding. This killed me. Sobbed before I went to sleep.

Mon: DH gone to work. Some tears in morning. Met friend again, talked. Called into my parents, some tears. Back home to DH. We talked a lot. Wrote down questions for our RE about what happened. Talked about either going again (we have 4 frozen embryos left to transfer) or taking a complete break until after Xmas. Made no decisions, just talked. We downloaded first 4 episodes of Curb Your Enthusiasm, new series- laughed watching them. Had little cry before bed.

Tues: here I am, alone. I booked appointment with re to discuss what happened. Also waiting on a counsellor to call to make an appointment. I feel like crying but can't. Don't know what to do today